06 Oct


If there is one thing in the Word of God I can relate to it is the vein of suffering. who but Jesus knows the cruel of this world and the oppression of the evil one but Him. Him who suffered and die to strip the evil realm of it’s power. Only by His name can we overcome.
We are told in God’s Word that evil desires war against our soul. One of my biggest obstacles was the desire for optimal health and wellness. Born into a sick body, suffering reaching it’s pinnacle in me to the point of wanting to die. However in the gospel there is no promise of ease or perfection of flesh.
I read the Bible and prayed and prayed until I came to find relief, and the relief is from the supernatural. God changed my mind and how I see.
I take this life I am given serious, not for me to gain favor from you but to save you, for HIs glory, not mine. I realize I may receive scorn but if one person is helped then so be it. I state again, you hatred for me does not move me, nor does praise.
First of all Hebrews 11:6 says to bring faith to God, you must believe He exists and will save you, clean this mess up in your life.
Over and over we are told to pray against this darkness, be devoted, watchful and thankful. If you do not understand the darkness, ask. Jesus is God in flesh, is our Mediator and is Omniscient, encompasses all things. Is Omnipresent, is everywhere. He is Omnipotent, all powerful, nothing too difficult. Jesus has been sending demons back to the pit from the beginning.
In Him we can discern and defeat because Colossians 2:15 says He stripped the demonic realm of it’s powers, He triumphed over it all on the cross, Amen.
In Luke 19:10 Jesus made it clear what He came for, to seek and save what is lost. If you are feeling lost today that is you.
Getup and take charge of your soul and do not allow this to dominate you anymore.
In Acts 8 Phillip is in Samaria in the Spirit and he did miraculous things. It says with shrieks, evil spirits came out of many, and paralytics and cripples were healed. Infirmity is the work of the fallen nature, the sarx in us.
In todays world many of us seek wrong. We are told to not complain and not to argue, to not be anxious and worry. The mortal help I sought seemed to heighten my fear for it divided my faith. This is all the work of the enemy. 1 John 3:8 says that Jesus came to destroy the devils work, why do we allow it to rest on us in dividing us?
I will close with Titus 2:11-13, 14-15 God’s Grace teaches us to say not to worldly passions and live self controlled lives, while we wait on hope. Teach to encourage and rebuke with all authority.
People have survived for centuries on faith alone in the most challenging situations. I know what we face, but I know my Lord, I am confident in what I say. Jesus wants out faith to be pure, you can trust Him to heal your broken heart and soul and in that your body will cease to be loud. Yes you may continue to struggle, I do, and this we are told to do as good soldiers. Peter told us those who suffer according to God’s will should commit themselves to their faithful Creator and continue to do good. Can you come up out of your self pity to serve others? Each of us is called to discipleship but perhaps your condition is in your way, Let me challenge you. If you want to change the world for God go home and love your family. As a wife and mother, a leader and lover and teacher, I know I must rise early and meet with Abba and ask God to work with me so that I can work with them. Sometimes they are the hardest to love, but He governs as I seek a pure and reverent life as the Word says. Ladies we are not victims, Jesus loves you. Men have failed and will continue to fail but we are overcomes, we will be served well if we simply obey and do what is right, and do not give in to fear. Daughters of Sarah.
In this there is healing that comes to me. He heals my heart and it encompasses much. I may die from the issues of flesh but know it is not the end. What am a striving for, to save my own life? That would be foolish. He already did that, is doing that every day as He reveals the need for repentance of the empty things I chase.
And the God of Grace who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will Himself restore you and make your strong, firm and steadfast. Clothe yourself in humility this day and evermore for God opposes the proud but He gives grace to the Humble. Selah~ He is my peace
06 Jun


Creation exists all around us, the things that God made, not all this stuff. The world has a pulse rate. Tesla knew that,  electricity is in us and all around us. That said HAARP is a power harnesser and does a lot of freaky stuff in the atmosphere. They are hurting the ozone not global warming.  All of the Electro Magnetic fields have a current and said currents have an effect on human bodies.
What we do as humans matters a lot. There are no small things, everything is measured out and things are simply done or undone.  God provides us with opportunity in every day and we either walk out faith or fear. We live in consequences, it is said choose this day a blessing or a curse.
Ideally, there should be no anxiety in our exchanges with others in our sphere of influence. If anxiety enters your sphere back away from it. Think about what you are doing.
Working outside of fear, this should be as natural as breathing if you truly believe in God, truly believe Jesus saves you are truly seeking His face and finding out what pleases Him. If you are still in the garden forming a cloak of leaves to cover things with, please begin again, you owe it to yourself. God’s offers are free and eternal as long as it is today. As long as you are breathing.
Work in a sphere of possibility, for all things are possible with God.
Not some things, not certain things, all things. According to His will and Way, Yes is the answer. Find out what pleases Him. 
Every day do what you can do to respectfully further the truth and do it with confidence. Don’t keep trying to lift burdens to heavy for you, let someone help you and do it for you, or do it with them.
God said He put His laws on our hearts and wrote them on our minds, we all have a sense of how to treat others. Let us encourage others to love at all times. Most of the commandments are summed up in love. If I love you, I don’t kill you or do character assassinations on you, I don’t lie to you or about you, I don’t want what you have, Including your wife or husband, if I love God I honor the Sabbath, I don’t put other things before God or I slip on all other points. I honor your life. I put no stumbling block under your feet. I treat you fairly with kindness… I have integrity, I offer fidelity and I am loyal.
Loving one another and serving God is something billion of other people are also doing. One Way exists to Heaven, through a Risen Savior and Sacrifice and Jesus is His Name.
He is calling His Church, God’s children are His bride, we are gathering. We are not waiting for an organization or pastor to lead us, we already are here. I need no tag from culture, it is called the Human Race, God names us His Beloved.
The Unity God desires is all under  and in Jesus. Not all are. Many claim a label here given by a religion but this is relationship, to Heaven. Still holding earth identity is deadly.
38 Special said hold on loosely, but do’t let go. True, keep enough of a grasp on loving the lost but be ready to depart and aware of that fact. Jesus said “Watch’ three thousand years or so ago. Clocks and calendars do not belong to God they are of man.
I leave you with this. Fear is the adversaries easiest method of controlling behavior. Propaganda is a deep well to mine, I suggest you dear reader begin to understand that history has largely been lies and manipulations to get an obedient fooled group who does not know they have been fooled. Nice trusting humans, easy prey for someone who seeks to dominate. Germany did not see it coming either. From an economic standpoint the world is in dire straits.
Wars are wrong. Jesus came and said be peacekeepers. Wars were of man not the Kingdom of God. War causes traumatic stress in all parties involved and impacted. They give pills to wipe away bad memories but they actually can become deeper repressed and driven deeper into the person. Psychosis is the end result. It is not what God intended for the First Fruits on His coming Kingdom.
Dear Christian, prayer is the only way to stay clear of the deception to come. When the Abomination that causes desolation is present we can feel it in the air.
Look around, you see greed and a lot of human power but realize that is all run in the realm of the prince and power of the air.
Soon they will begin to preach peace and so many want it. But realize this, every egg has to hatch, every seed must burst forth. Every forest floor scarred by fire becomes green again as will life renew. We serve a Creator who Redeems, Resurrects, Renews and Restores, let us never forget that. He loves Creation, and His people. The Bible says God will take accounting from ever man and animal. It also says God will destroy those who destroy the earth. Jesus said He is coming back to collect His and destroy all that can be shaken. Hold your faith.
Please read your Bible, pray on what I said, but please consider my words. I am not here for fame, I simply call from the wall to tell you what I can see.
Much love~
27 May

Conforming to What



I am not here to confrom to anything. Awake.  Alive. Redeemed. Speaking Truth.


If I shatter your little illusion, bummer. Life is tough, get a helmet.

The act of conforming is: to act in accordance or harmony; comply; to act in accord with the prevailing standards, attitudes, practices, etc., of society or a group: to be or become similar in form, nature, or character.

God says,  Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:2
It is said the world runs on Dunkin, but I digress.
Alcohol consumption is now modeled to much of the living world as fun, a good time, deserved R &R.
It comes is all packages, translates to all cultures and has the same effects in culture that we see listed in the above notes statistics in America.
And the party rages on.
What happens in America if you step off of the platform society finds acceptable? You are excluded. So we once again do what the Bible says not to do and make divisions.
The Bible says if what you eat or drink makes another stumble then stop. But we don’t stop, we move on. We excommunicate and expel the ones who learn how dangerous alcohol is, the truth sounds like hate and is unpopular but the truth is alcohol is a gateway drug and is a neurotoxin.
I married into a family that consumes at almost every event, alcohol is present for all things.
I struggled with alcohol addiction in my 20s after forming an unhealthy relationship with it. It was my courage and charisma for years. In my 30’s though it was insidious. I was not in the fervor of my youth any longer I simply was fitting into society. I had a new job, was in Rome doing as Romans do. In this new role I assumed that I’d be safe.
By the time I was drinking every day again, it was medicine, for pain, the pain of my life. Amid all the DR’s and pills that did nothing, the wine and beer took the edge from me, I was able to relax and laugh.
Little did I know I was healing problems on my body. On Methotrexate and getting my liver tested every 6 weeks did not bode well with binge drinking. As I got sicker and sicker from the viruses and bacteria in me, the deeper the Dr went with treatment, I was told not to drink. But I did. Being in social circles makes me stressed, I am an introvert by nature and have never fit in with the masses. It grafted me in and I became part of the culture around me.
Once I was being treated and tested they found my body never could process alcohol, no wonder I got so very sick from it. It poisoned me, it poisoned my kids and relationships.
The ones who gave it to me early could have killed me. Yes I always was called weak by the consumption crowd, told you can’t handle it…..right I could not.
Now it is the culture who is intolerant of my staunch abstinence and defend their positions. What rights do former addicts have? Can they still see the people and go the places they did? No. And does society make that any easier? No. We make a way for the everyone who is set apart by something but not the ones caught in the crossfire of society’s love for the bottle? These get treated like outsiders, pushed to AA meetings just to say sober, pushed into seclusion so temptation does not rule over you. What a selfish culture indeed. What a shame.
Fast forward to today. As I read Romans today and was reminded of how we are grafted into God’s Family, I see also how we get grafted into unhealthy places.
I have had to separate myself from most events I used to attend. Oddly when you step up and say I have a problem, they do not stop, they get offended when you speak up and continue without you.
Today I will spend my day alone by choice. The event gets planned without me, and  will be happening without me. Not once did anyone consider any of this. They do not ask, do not care.
Sadly I have seen the level of selfishness and my way that dominates this culture today. But I refuse to be a victim of it.
Dear reader who also is set apart. Jesus said come outside the city where the party is to outside the gate. That is where He is. He went to the events to heal and show the glory of God not to pander. TheBible says in Proverbs, “Let beer be for those who are perishing, wine for those who are in anguish!”
We are told to find out what pleases God, I have found drunkenness is dissipation and bring forth no fruit of the spirit. I speak against it as it does not edify, nor does it build up any man. That makes me a freak here and I let my freak flag fly. Unashamed. Outside the camp. 
Much love peeps <3
25 May

Rights or Faith



America, the home of rights. We are led wrong as Christians in this.
Did you know when rights are the guiding factor it dulls spiritual insight?
God wants America to be home of the Righteous not rights. He has blessed us and calls us to set an example. 
The greatest enemy of our faith is not sin but good choices that are not good enough. You see good is always the enemy of what is best. We are told it is our right to choose and it is, it is free will.
I am called to walk according to God’s standards, not mine or the ones set by the culture around me.
God’s standard is justice, love, kindness, peace. This culture says nothing that remotely sounds like the Lord I know. Pretend you are a refugee coming here, follow my link in red, what would you say you are entering? A country of faith or self reliance?
Enter here: refugee center
In todays churches we have shepherds in pulpits leading flocks, flocks that claim to be the sum of the body of Christ. Yet these flocks do not look or act like Jesus, they forget the lost and dying world is out there, forget we have all power and authority to change that. Dulled spiritual insight.
It is age and wisdom, maturity in faith that can lead this way. How many pastors do you see filling up his flesh on what is still lacking in regard to Christ’s afflictions for the sake of His body, the church? (reference Colossians 1:24)
Are these men in pulpits preaching culture or the Gospel? Why are we entertaining flocks, these people of faith, doing ear tickling and pandering bad habits?
Colossians says to not be taken captive throughout hollow philosophy (the study of the fundamental nature of knowledge, reality, and existence, especially when considered as an academic discipline) which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of the world rather than Christ. Mix theology(the study of God) into the pulpit and you have a great risk of heresy. How do we know each man preaching has a true relationship with God. Should we be dependent on that? Do we risk our own souls?
The Word of God says to hold your doctrine closely, how many of us hold a doctrine at all? 
Doctrine defined is this:
Doctrine (from Latin: doctrina) is a codification of beliefs or a body of teachings or instructions, taught principles or positions, as the essence of teachings in a given branch of knowledge or belief system.
We are called shoots, grafted in to the Branch, our Lord Jesus. We are told we are taught by the Holy Spirit. This is one of one, you and God in prayer, not done in churches. They are gathering places for us, but we should already be taught from our relationship with God, but for many church is it. Church never saved one soul, it is Jesus in us working His glory. I fear for many who walk out the world, serving themselves and claim to be His by attendance and deeds.  
One would think the ones who gather in churches are all on solid food but this is not so. No wonder evangelism suffers as it does. Discipling a soul is done one at a time, over time, we do this in life, not in church. It is down at home, in families and social circles. Faith is shown by living it out, we are told our lives are a testimony. See Titus 2, available here https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Titus%202
Solid food is good for these who have been trained to discern good from evil. Yet many churches are full of greed, envy, hostility, infighting, selfishness among the flock. 
Who are they following? We take kids there for all of their lives but still they cannot discern good from evil. Christian kids who go to secular colleges lose their faith in the first year. Scary statistic, go look it up. They come out claiming to be a Christian but they look like the world. They all out lives like the world, cultured by media, taught by the education system, small spirituality, weak faith but a plan to conquer the world and gain status, career, the American dream. Where is Jesus is all of this? 
Among a seasoned flock one should see rebukes for evil, admonishments and renouncing of such, done with love. I see us passing it over, letting it go and bitter roots being established. Are pastors waiting for God to come down and do it? We are the hands and feet of God, He speaks and acts in on ones who obediently do as He instructs. I fear many ignore that call, they have ignored it in dear and now acts as ones never enlightened. Saying yes to Jesus means you walk as He did not settle into lazy self serving. 
Falling away….a dreaded term but what do you call the milk fed babies who never mature? 
This subjects God to public disgrace. In the Bible it says it is impossible to be enlightened again. Woe shepherds for work undone. It is you who are unfruitful not the masses you are called to lead. What a heavy weight you carry, how I pray for pulpits to be cleansed. I cannot look at the youth and not see utter failure from these alleged leaders of the greater good. They are men called to live above reproach, I have yet to see that. 
Land with crops are harvested, they drink in rain, but land covered in thorns and thistles is in danger of fire and begin burned. Do with that what you want, not my words, God’s. 
Are they trampling Jesus under foot? Treating the covenant that sanctifies us as unholy, are we insulting the spirit of Grace? 
We allow wolves among the flock, we do not say a word, we let this all go on fearing loss of tithe, attendance and reputation, do we not know grace fills in for us? We are called to be bold and speak against evil. 
People of faith in the Bible were nomadic, led by faith living add strangers. They did not act on ideas but waited for a word from the Lord. Without faith it is impossible to please God. God says be prayerful for the brethren, stand in the gap until they reach faith.
The faithful are called to endure hardships as disciplines, for this is God treating us as sons. God disciplines us for our own good. He is the Father of our Spirits, He knows this produces a harvest of righteousness and peace, it is we who hate this, we only hurt ourselves. We run to flesh solutions in the world system, mother’s milk instead of faith, we need it now, we cannot wait. 
How many of these ones sat in church for 40 years and still have no possession of faith to testify to. But we have 401K, IRA, shiny kids, salaries and a lot of stuff. 
There is a church described in Hebrews 12. Mount Zion, the city of God. In the company of thousands of angels joyful in assembly. This is the church of the firstborn, the ones whose names are written in Heaven, we come to God, to the the sprits of righteous men made perfect, to Jesus the mediator of a new covenant and blood that speaks a better Word. 
He will once more shake this earth, He will take what is not shaken, He will remove all created things. Your precious church buildings will burn and fall, then who are you going to be? You spend all this time doing and doing and were told to go be the light, bring the Gospel and yoke with our Lord.
I suggest we all turn and worship Him in reverence and awe. 
Our charge as His church (not a building but hearts of men) is this:
Love as brothers.
Remember imprisoned ones as if it is we who suffer.
Marriage honored the bed kept pure. (not as Hollywood and books say)
Keep life free of love of money and be content.
Remember your leaders and imitate their faith, Jesus never changes, follow Him.
Do not be carried by strange teachings.
Go outside the camp and bear disgrace.
Offer praise, the fruit of your lips that confess His name. 
Do good to others.
Share with others.
Obey leaders, submit to authority. No rebels.
In the covenant of Jesus blood we are equipped with everything good for doing His will. He will work in us what is pleasing to Him throughout Jesus. We glorify His name. We trust and obey. 
I write not to condemn anyone but to speak truths that must be spoken, what God lays on my heart will not leave my lips and return empty but will accomplish what he desires and achieve the purpose He sets forth. 
Much love,